Shameful.
I’m seriously starting to believe that everyone around me is ridiculously stupid. I have never been so angry at the world for no apparent reason other than that it’s annoying as fuck because everyone’s fucking stupid. It’s blatantly obvious when I’m irritated, so I have no fucking clue why the fucking world can’t take a hint. TAKE A FUCKING HINT.
Holy shit. I need time away.
Part of me wishes I could feel the same as you do. Because nothing hurts more than to see someone you truly care about get hurt, especially if it’s your fault. This is my fault. You don’t deserve this.
Out of the world she’s grown so fearful of.
I’m so glad I finally got a chance to talk to you tonight. I know I’ve said this at least a billion times already, but I really do care about you. Even if we aren’t the best of friends. I just want things to be okay— for you to be okay. And if things aren’t then pleasepleaseplease don’t ever hesitate to hit me up. I want you to know that I’m here for you, and I sincerely mean that.
Thank you for taking the time to sit down with me to have this conversation, I really hope it helped.
<3 (:
You don’t really pay attention to me.
You don’t listen to me. You don’t genuinely care about the things that are important to me. You don’t like to talk much anymore. You’re only interested in me when you want something. You don’t read between the lines, and realize that half the things I say concern you. You have selective hearing/reading/understanding. You don’t respect me like I wish you would. I am almost fully convinced that you just don’t care.
Coupled with sudden loss, insomnia, and an endless stream of running thoughts, this heavy heart has had about enough.
Life sucks.
Problems arise. Some big, some small. I just fixed a pretty large problem. But in the process of fixing things, all these little problems culminated themselves into one HUGE problem.
Problem after fucking problem. Can’t I get even a little break?
Camp Emmaus, you must sooner, and stay longer.
I need to focus more on learning how to adjust rather than learning how to restore what’s normal. I am better off without you, I know it. I just need to see it.
I am so sick of you and your fucking attitude. I’m not usually one for ultimatums, but there’s a first time for everything. Fix it or I’m done.
